I was pretty sure that I've already gone through my mid-life crisis (unless you can have more than one--and if so, that stinks)...but, now I'm not so sure. I feel stuck. I'm not delusional to think that I can go to any other company and not "start off at the bottom"; but the paycheck that I make now cannot really change. We cannot really afford to have less than we do now. And where's that magical job? That pays the same as I make now (or more), with those wonderful days and super hours...??? Uh, huh.
I know that I really can go do anything--anywhere else--and be successful at it...but retail is what I have now spent more than a decade doing. And, I fear, that retail will be where I'm "stuck" the rest of my life. I'm good at my job, but doing something different really appeals to me. I don't know what I would go do, in particular, but I like the thought of "re-inventing" myself. I also know that starting over with a company or type of work comes at a cost...
All of life is a trade-off. You are constantly trading one thing for another. It all comes down to what holds the higher value to you..."happiness" at your job or the amount of your paycheck. I trade "good days/liking my job" for the amount of my paycheck. I know that there's no guarantee that I'll go to another job (in retail or not) and trade a lower paycheck for more "good days or happy at my job"...
Thus my conundrum. AND, then, on top of that I feel much like a whiny child. I've got this job. Now. I make this much money. Every week. But I don't "like" it...I want to do something different? (ungrateful much?)
Fortunately for me, this day and age enables me to be whiny in print for everyone to see...lol. =)
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